My name is Sarah, and I’m a writer, teacher, perpetual student, overachiever, sandwich-generation mom, daughter & wife. And I happen to struggle with depression, chronic insomnia, and an eating disorder. Being the true overachiever that I am, I don’t have just one eating disorder – I sort of have two. I’m kind of anorexic (I restrict, obsess, and don’t get it), and I’m kind of bulimic (I purge). I also self-harm. So under the DSM IV, I’m EDNOS – Eating Disorder Otherwise Not Specified. I liked being EDNOS. But now DSM V came along and apparently I’m now on the border between Anorexia Nervosa and Other Specified Feeding or Eating Disorder (OSFED)-atypical anorexia nervosa and purging disorder. I wish they’d come up with an acronym that was nicer and didn’t refer to food, but they didn’t ask me
This blog is about recovery and how much it sucks, but why I find it worth it (in theory). I want to talk about the weird things about EDs that people don’t know. The odd feelings that I have that I think are disordered but I’m not entirely sure. And the moments when either I’m so far deep in the hole that I can’t see out, or when I actually get a brief reprieve and I think I’m going to be ok.
So if you connect with what I write – whether or not you have an ED or are struggling with something else or have a loved one who is fighting this nastiness, and you’d like to write a guest post, please contact me.
If you want to know more about how I got to where I am (the Cliff Notes version), read this and this. My greatest hope is that maybe one or two of you out there reading this connect with what I’m saying, and that perhaps I can connect with your story and insights. Everything I write is true – this is my real experience, and I am living it.
Until then, please read and follow – and I will keep you in my thoughts. I’m grateful you’re reading this!